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I don't think I would sleep if I had a supply of trusty stimulants on hand. Sleep is really quite a waste of time - 8 hours doing nothing, minimal brain activity with a paralyzed, slightly twitchy body? No thanks.

Caffeine is a shitty drug. Modafinil is ok as a "wakefulness promoter" but it still lacks the actual stimulation, energy and endurance that proper dextro-amphetamine gives a person.

I love drugs, but not psychedelics, or amphetamines. But to be able to take something once every often, to fight off sleep for days at a time? I'd do it until the sleep deprivation and amphetamine-psychosis got to me. Until then, I sleep when I need to, I guess.

A relative might be able to get me work at a nearby Steel Factory or a Foundry or some such. I need the money. I need weed, and drugs.

My ideal, primo stash, since I'm fantasizing: jars of different strains of perfectly grown and cured buds. Dextro-amphetamine. Ritalin. Klonopin. Midazolam 5mg/5mL vial for injection. Morphine Sulfate injectable tablets. Some quality Heroin, and of course good Coke. Don't forget the hashish brownies or fudge, my own private recipes too.

I definitely need to put in an order to my connection in the South - I can get the M.S., Ritalin, Klonopin and Midazolam inj off them. They stock plenty of other stuff, even Fentanyl vials and vials of Anabolic Steroids.. but those are the only 4 medicines i'm interested in.

Definitely need some heavy-weight downers. I ate 3x1mg Xanax earlier to help me sleep. Ni de hablar! Strong and short acting my ass. Xanax ain't shit.

Alprazolam is weak; if I had some Midazolam inj. around I'd be out like a light. 1-2mL in the arm and I'd be sound asleep for hourZzzz. If only.

And yes, the air outside does still feel just a little Fake. Like Sim City or the Matrix fake. And hot.